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Wahahaha… now I get what I reap… skip skip skip morning lectures la…. and now my Prof has decided to blacklist me..! AH! Although he didn’t officially blacklist me, I somehow feel that he has already done so deep in his heart… okie that’s the consequences of skipping 2 lectures… and 1 tutorial… sighz….

What can I do? Except to really prove my worth to him in my semester project… Yup, we working on this cool website la… Called the "Laberinto de las Muneco", which means "Labyrinth of Dolls"… Wooo… sounds chic ya? Hahahaha… Marissa and I decided on this name like after an hour’s discussion… and when we finally did, we felt such a great sense of accomplisment! Wahahaha… Gals will be gals… keke…

Anyway, yup we like dolls that’s why the theme on dolls…. BUT, we wanted something that is out of tradition… and since I reali love Little Apple Dolls and Marissa was into such stuffs as well.. we decided on a site that sells gothic dolls… these dolls should have a story of their own.. a little like little apple dolls you may say.. thus, we will be making amendments here and there…Hope this goes smoothly… Put an end to the Prof’s blacklisting… =0)

The Chinese New year was fun.. received lots of hongbaos and of course as usual ate lots of stuffs… kekeke.. but marriage was an element in our conversation this year instead of the usual Bfs, Gfs, frenz thingy.. Yup, cousin Jenny is getting married!! WOHOO!! Hahaha.. we are all so happy for her…! We were all deciding on the what each person should wear… Cuz Jen has got her bridal gown ready and stuffs… and everything is pretty much in place… BUT never did I expect the customary Chinese wedding to be so elaborated.. wat chicken la… wat wine glass la… wat dowry la… Wowo… Marriage is so complicated.. Next time I’ll just get myself a simple simple marriage… hahaha..Oh ya, Cousin Connie is reali freaking out as well… She has to give this speech in Chinese to about 900 guests that night and she wants to drag me up as well!!! ARGH!! Hahaha… There is NO WAY I will go up on stage and give a speech to 900 guests in CHINESE! OMG!! I am already stumbling with proper Mandarin and dardar is always laughing at me, how in the world am I supposed to stand there and present in CHINESE? hahahaha! Reminds me of the days Chencheng and I were the hosts for our concerts..

Yup, moving on.. Finally dropped my China Boy tuition assignment… YEAH! hahahahaha… I knew I needed the money BUT frankly speaking, I rather work at Xiyan than tutor him…

Next on the to-do list, I know I needed to send out my resumes and work on my paper.. AH!BUT I’M SO ILL-DISCIPLINED!!! ARGH!! MEIQI! It’s time to MOVE YOUR ASS!! ARGH!! You know, I seriously have to practice time management and stick religiously to it man.. Yup, so peeps, HERE I GO!

why am I leading such a sad life you must say…. I sincerely have no idea either…. all year round, I’m complaining about how stress my life is.. how I wish this wasn’t the case but sadly, stress is the only thing that envelopes my life now…

Valentine’s day was simple and I am touched by the simplicity DarDar had kept it…We went for dinner at this new Thailand restaurant near Katong… Quite delicious.. Had Pat Thai, and this nice longan Yogurt drink called ChiangMai Paradise.. Delicious… I thought that as usual DarDar will not give me any flowers, not that it was important.. But 5 years, and I have never received any flowers from him…. hahaha.. I was wrong! We went home to take the car and there lying on the table was a bouquet of flowers…! and Lily… hahaha, my favourite flowers…. *next to tulips of course =0)* Thanks sweetie!

Went to East Coast Park after that and busked ourselves in the cool, relieving sea breeze… It was then I realized that although I have always been complaining about him, I reali treasure our relationship… He may not be the typical romantic person, he may not be the typical gentleman, but he is certainly the person who never fails to make me laugh and perk my stressful life up… and he is certainly the person who never chides me for flaring up for no good reasons….

Well, that was my part of Valentine’s Day… A simple day…Contradictorily, even though my day was sweet, I do have to agree with Shihua… Valentine’s Day is irrelevant.. it is a totally irrelevant day in our lives..Why you may ask… Coz’ Valentine’s Day is simply a day where guyz display their love through mediums like flowers, cards, chocolates for their beloved.. and a day where galz get to "shout" out loud and compare their charm… it is uncalled for… why should love only be displayed publicly on 14 Feb? Just because some guy called St. Valentine passed away on this day? Nope… his noble deed should be practiced everyday.. not merely on a day he died…

Yuppie, so that was the only day in the entire week that wasn’t stressful… other than that, my week has pretty much been engulfed in stress… I guess if you ever google for the most number of times the word stress appear in a single blog, this blog should most probably emerge top…

Just now during lecture, I read this email from Prof Chua.. Yup, Cecil Chua… And I’m reali reali sad… His mail sort of scolded us, the IT specs Bus undergraduate for not looking for jobs… Reali… I am already paranoid about the fact that some of my peers have found jobs… It really doesn’t mean that by not attending career talks organized by the school, it would mean that I am not enthusiatic about finding a job.. I really have no time! It is not because I waited too long! I went for talks during October, I went for career fairs okie! It is just that they didn’t want us to submit resumes on the spot! Okie, my fault for not sending resumes….My fault alright.. But don’t don’t assume I am not enthusiatic and worried about it.. ASSUME= Makes an Ass out of U and Me..

In addition to the job hunt, my projects are killing me..
1. FYP due on 16 Mar 2007
2. Flash Assignment due on 29 Feb 2007
3. Web Design Proposal due on 29 Feb 2007
4. Strategy Management Test on 2 Mar 2007
5. FYP Draft due on 23 Feb 2007
6. Strategy Case Analysis due 2 Mar 2007
7. Strategy Case Report due on 1 Mar 2007

OMG! I’m so screwed…. so so screwed… On top of that, I am so worried that I won’t get my honours.. Yup I understand completely that grades are not everything… BUT in an environment where honours are highly valued… where pursuits of these honours are wild and foolish… I have slowly fallen into this pit of senseless pursuit..

Maybe life isn’t that complex afterall…. but somehow… we made it complex…..

Night Out_Dear’s First Drive

Went out last saturday with Dear and Wenxing… It was DarDar’s first official drive… He was so nervous! Hahaha.. But still, you did well! =0)

Firstly, we went over to Sengkang and picked Wenxing up… Wenxing brought along 2 other friends and DarDar was so stressed… hahaha.. coz it’s his first time and he was really unsure of his own driving skills… Dun worry dear….

So I proceeded to take my stuffs to place it in the boot… However, to our dismay, he doesn’t noe how to open it!! Hahaha..Wenxing’s frenz started telling him that it was the button near the driver’s seat.. and "BOOM"! THE BONET OPENED!!! hAHAHAHA…! We nearly died laughing!

Anyway, after sending them back, we wanted to go over to Green House… rumoured the most haunted mansion in Singapore.. The moment we reached, we changed our minds… the SLOPE WAS ALMOST VERTICAL! It was about 85 degree! I am not exagerrating! IT’s TRUE! So Wenxing suggested that we abandon the car and walk up the slope ourselves! There was no way I was gonna do that.. not because I was lazy but I was too scared to even get close to the house…! I dun wan anything to follow me… *after my encounter, I became this scardy cat… *

So we ended up in West Coast McDonald’s…. Never knew that such a place existed… but the McDonald was really nice… It had a pond and an al-fresco dining area… reali resort like…

All in all, we still managed to have fun that night.. despite the fact that we registered a 100 click….. eh…………….. yup, 100 click for 1 night………………….. haha……..

Shihua’s Birthday

My beloved Shihua! Haha, yup, we went to celebrate her birthday like 2x! ARGH! hahahaha…

Went to K Box yesterday with Siew Chong, Qing Hui, Yu Jen, Shihua.. Jeff was supposed to come but sadly he had his FYP and couldn’t make it…. Went to the K Box at MS and we started on the buffet…Heehee heehee… Had so much food on the table and everyone was busy eating than singing when I reached… Hahaha…

Well, on a whole we had lots of fun, sang songs together… and the climax was at the point we all sang "Lian Ai ing" by Mayday! Hahaha.. everyone stood and started jumping! Hahaha… And it was at this point that I felt extremely grateful to this bunch of friends… without whom, my life in NTU would have been less fulfilling and definitely less colourful… Thank you guyz… Love you…

Anyway, back to the brithday celebrations… The K Box was the 2nd celebration actually… The 1st was when Shihua and Sharm sort of co-celebrated they birthdays together at St James…

Very grateful to Akeong and Micheal.. Coz I dun usually club and don drink, hence I was extremely hesitant on joining their birthday celebrations… Luckily, Akeong helped me ask Micheal whether I can come in for free that night.. and KUDOS TO MICHAEL! Hahaha, my beloved colleague from ****B***K Kekeke… he allowed me to bring 3 frenx in and I brought Shihua, Jiahui and Margaret in for free… So cool… hahhaaha

Anyway, the place wasn’t fun at all.. I don’t noe why, maybe it is because I wasn’t of clubbing material.. but the songs didnt really hit off well.. they started playing a little of trance and then mixing it up with a little of R & B and then playing more of trance and techno then… eh……………………………………

Okie not too much comments about the songs, but the differentiation was done beautifully.. they had this bunch of acrobats who did some stunts and everyone was enjoying that performance… The best part, they were "flying" above the crowd, moving to tis beautiful music…. Such fantasy…. hahaha… in addition, they had dancers who will stand on this suspending stage above the bar… Oh the amusing part! They have male dancers who dressed up as girls! Hahaha.. Sharm and I were trying our best to determine their gender, not that it was very important, but hey they are good dancers.. =0)

Saved alot of money, thanks to Akeong and Micheal.. Got my non-alcholic drinks for free… and managed to save my money on lockers too… So, Akeong and Micheal, thank you so much for your help… Dun worry, I wont do it often…. =0)

Shihua came with that usual bunch of frenz.. didnt really talked much to them.. but the more I hear about this guy… the more disgusted I feel about him.. anyway babe, I’m SOOOO glad you didn’t get hooked on him! Thank GOD MAN! Of course, I want her to find a bf soon, but I wouldn’t want her to get hurt by such a guy… =0)

Local Exchange to SMU

Yup, we are on local exchange to SMU! Both Shihua and me wanted to try something different for our final sem. Initially, Shihua wanted an overseas exchange to Thailand! YUP, THE LAND OF A THOUSAND SMILES! Hahahaha, and I was seriously considering it too… but somehow, we dismissed the idea. 1st, it was too expensive for my pockets and 2nd, it was too dangerous… Parents of "Miss Liz" decided that it was too dangerous for her too…. So our adventurous dream died there and then…

We didn’t want to stay in NTU and not expose ourselves to different cultures, so we concluded that a local exchange was better than nothing… We had a backup plan too! Rent a hall should we not go for the local exchange…. And yup, we got it and here we are in SMU…=0)

The first day in school was a culture shock.. everyone was dressed up for school! As compared to the NTU us, we were sloppy… Okie, maybe I WAS SLOPPY… hahhaha.. cluthered in my usual jeans and tee, I felt like a freak… hahahaha… In addition, everyone was ahead of technology, or okie, maybe in synch with technology… they took notes using their laptops… and we? well, we pulled out our foolscap and pens and starting jotting down everything religiously…. hahahaha.. typical us…..

Anyway, we managed to group up with these really nice SMU students.. But one thing really scare us… SMU STUDENTS DO PROJECTS ON SUNDAYS!!! And that was my first sunday dedicated solely to project work… OMG! I cant believe this! All my life in NTU, we have never NEVER NEVER WORK ON PROJECTS ON A SUNDAY!!! It wasn’t that bad really… but still I wasn’t looking forward to another project on a sunday…

However, just like in any other places, not all of them are very nice… just last sunday, Yahui, Huimin and I booked a room in SMU to work on our FYP…. We were quite late la.. reached there at about 3 when we booked the room at 130pm… hahaha but still that time slot was for us! But when we reached, there were 2 students in it… we were quite stunned but still I went in and politely, politely okie, told them that we have booked the room from 130 to 500pm…. Instead of registering this fact, the guy turned around with this rather stuck-up look and

Guy, "But it is 3pm now."

Me(with a puzzled look), "Yup, but, eh… we booked it from 130 to 5pm"

Guy, "Ya, but there is a 1 hour levy. If you don’t come in by 230, tis room is gone. YOU SHOULD NOE THAT!"

Me(with still that puzzled look), "erm.. sorry but we didn’t noe that.. I’m from NTU…."

Guy(still putting up that stuck-up look), "Your SMU FRENZ SHOULD NOE THAT!" Then dart his stare to Yahui and Huimin…

Me(running out of patience), "WE ARE ALL FROM NTU! WE DIDN"T NOE THAT!"

Guy(finally, relenting..), "Oh, okie then…. "

When they finally packed up and left, I even thank them… how silly… afterwhich the more I thought about the matter, the pisser I was… I called Akeong and asked whether such a levy exist.. and GUESS! NO!!!

Sighz… that was when Yahui and Huimin really got so pissed they simply hated SMU… ops… but ya, it was quite a bad first impression….

ANyway, I am glad that Shihua and I met nice ppl and hopefully life in SMU will stay pretty much the way it is… nice, quiet and peaceful… =0)

Final Year Project

My last sem this year, and my life isn’t getting any easier… Aside from the mounting pressure from surrounding frenz who found excellent paying job, the pressure is building up for our FYP…

With less than 5 weeks of time, we are all rushing… but I simply don’t understand myself.. I have become more ill-disciplined over the weeks and couldn’t perk my spirits up to work really hard… I don’t know what’s wrong with me… but I seriously need to do something about myself….

Ruan Concert @ Esplanade

Yup, you must be wondering… Ruan? Yup, I quitted from that place a long time ago… But recently, the passion for music came back really strongly…. And when the ruanster came to know that we get to perform in the main concert hall in esplanade… We were determine…..! hHahahaha.. to perform I mean….

Well, the concert hall was really a sight to behold… with 1600 seats… and a suspending ceiling… and wonderful sound systems, it was a state of the art…. We went around snapping pictures and reali that was about it… didnt reali practice but still the similar feelings whenever we perform were felt… we were still that band of musicians who love each other, love the feeling of performing, love the applause we hear whenever we are on stage and love the music we play….

After this performance, I don’t know when we will get to perform together again.. but ChenCheng did ask us to go for the CHina performance…. We would get sponsorship and he wanted all of us to go together as a team, a family we all enjoyed when we were in Japan… frankly speaking Chencheng, I really love that thought, and really hope that we can do that again…. Why don’t we all meet up really soon and discuss it together? Or maybe even tag it on our ruanster blog… I’ll go along with the majority.. =0)

2nd login for DBS IBanking, and I failed again… called the customer service hotline and was told that they can only reset my account for me once… which means that they cannot reset it for me again.. shit.. sighz..

Okie, 2007… hasn’t really been a good year for me… hahahaha… the year began with
(1) my thumbdrive going haywire and then finally it died on me…. *sob*
(2) not enough time for FYP, SMU’s project & Web Design
(3) my work place *this chinese restaurant* imposed this stupid policy of claiming taxi fare after 12am & began charging customers service charge, 10% mind you…
(4) all 3 chefs left + my soon to leave manager
(5) got this weird china boy as my tuition kid *he keeps digging his nose & worse, EATING WATEVER THAT HE MANAGED TO DIG OUT!*
(6) fatigue began catching up on me really quick
(7) weird tutor at SMU
(8) got screamed at by this student who cannot get his modules
(9) screwed up schedule *cannot manage to manage my time as I did; hmm I never did*
(10) brought my favourite black heels for performance @ Esplanade, only to find that it has fallen apart

yup, how sucky can the year get… hahaha…oh and did I mention frenz in uni are all frantically looking for jobs? some managed to find jobs and fetch salaries as high as $3750 & $4500!! ARGH! These ppl not only tense up the academic atmosphere BUT the employment atmosphere as well… sighz..

Okie I noe I sound like terribly pessimistic person… BUT HOLD UR HORSES! I am not! hahahaha… I have to admit I was extremely down and affected… but, somehow I will not allow myself to fall… no… i wont… so as of tonight, 29Jan 2007, I will:

(1) Perk up & Pick up the fallen pieces
(2) Find a full time job before I graduate *praying hard*
(3) Drop my china boy tuition kid *he’s taking way too much of my energy & time*
(4) Have fun
(5) Most importantly, be contented…. =0)

Finally, it has been a week and the poxes are all drying up… Hahahahaha! I’m so HAPPY! The past few days were so filled with occassional itches, boredom, frustration, irritation and helplessness…

There was this night where I ate something wrong I think, and my whole body itches like hell!!! I was practically up every hour of the night, trying to refrain myself from scratching!! AH! There was nothing I could do; just to apply calamine lotion to soothe the itch… THAT’S ALL! This is what I call helplessness & frustration.. And oh ya, Miss Peiru’s idea of sticking double sided tape! Haha, eh,
it didn’t reali stick throughout the night though.. so sad.. =0( In the
end I simply gave up wearing gloves.. hahaha.. !

But well, luckily for me after that night, no such thing happened anymore.. Throughout the whole week, had calls from sweet friends; Jeffrey, Jiahui, Wenxing, Keith, Alvin, A Keong, Huimin, Yahui and of course DarDar etc… So sweet of them…=0) THanks guyz! DarDar brought me lots of coconut juice and liang teh.. ekk… the coconut was okie, but the liang teh was… EKK!!! Anyway, I knew I had to drink and that’s all I can do for my illness.. another sign of helplessness…

Realize chicken pox is reali "deadly"…It leaves you with 2 weeks of time, stop your reality tracks and thrust you into a bottomless pit…and the fact that you cannot bath with soap and shampoo simply brings your life to a stop! AH! see how deadly it is? But, finally had a real proper hair wash today… wow! It feels so GREAT!SO WONDERFUL! SO BLISSFUL!! I AM IN HEAVEN!!!! Hahaha…But reali try not washing your hair for a week… ekk… it is terrible to even begin with.. that feeling of dirt, itch and I dont know how else to describe it.. ekk….

Bath thingy aside, the week was torturous! I had nothing to do!! Okie, rephrase, I have lots of things to do!! BUT, I CANT BRING MYSELF TO DO IT! AH! Had lots of readings and FYP to rush, but it is either I am down with severe headache or my brain simply shut off.. All I did was to sleep, sleep and sleep… argh…. I fear sleeping… So right now, I am extremely behind time… sucks…

Well anyway, since I am on the road to recovery, I feel so in control of my time again and I am so thankful to Allah… Kekekeke… Finally I can go back to work (Funny, I felt empty when I don’t work.. Hehe).. Finallly, I can go for projectwork..Finally, I can bath… Finally, my braces can be done… Finally, I can go play… Finally, I can be ME!!!! Hehehehe.. YAHOO!!!

Yesterday was terrible… I had to sleep in the living room for fear of passing the pox virus to my beloved sister… So at 11pm, I proceed to shift my pillows, blanket to the living room.. *Sob* Then Mum told me I can’t switch on the fan! FAN = BAD FOR POX-CIFIED VICTIMS! AH!!! Nevertheless, I still switched on the fan, but turned it so that it doesn’t blow on me… *Haha, reali need some sounds to break the uncomfortable slience of the night la*

Well, afterwhich, I proceeded to look for gloves and socks.. Apparently, as mentioned in site, gloves can protect against subconscious scratching in the night.. Subconscious scratching? Okie Gloves are a MUST! I wore a t-shirt, a cardigan and tucked everything in my pants. I thought I must be safe… But I WAS WRONG! Haha, I woke up this morning, only to find my gloves are gone.. only one remained.. and my hands are sratching the pox frantically!!! AH!!! I nearly died…

Tonight, I am so gonna do something about this.. I don’t know how.. but I’ll try… Everyone is laughing at me… argh…

"SO OLD le… Then get chicken pox ar?? Wahahaha…"

"Huh… Reali? Orbi… so old then get chicken pox… wahahahahah…."

"OMG! I got it when I was in Primary school!…"

Argh…. okie… shoot me.. no, shoot the pox…

Okie guyz, so now after a long long time, I’m back! Haha.. Okie, it’s not as if anyone misses my blog… =0) I had wanted to blog, I swear! So many things happened! ah! But with my surviving breath, I want to announce to the whole wide world_______ I JUS SPOTTED A CHICKEN POX ON ME! YES ON MOI!!

praying hard that it isn’t….. my eyes moved on to the rest of my body and………………….

to my horror, I FOUND MORE!!!! AH! Tat’s it, I’m hitting the doctor to confirm my fears…
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Yup, it’s the horrific CHICKEN POX! My doctor simply laugh and said well, you have 2 whole weeks to yourself now… (*Blank expression*)

Okie yup, it is great that I have 2 weeks, but oh Allah, I need to work! I need the $$$$$$$$$!! 2 WHOLE WEEKS of MC will cost me so much!!!!!!! AH!!! I still need to survive next semester!!!! argh! Not forgetting, I still have my FYP to rush and my Loreal thingy to rush! AH!! SAVE ME SOMEONE!!!!

Approaching the end of the academic semester le… school work is piling up and pressure has been immense… the pressure for everyone is so HUGE that conflicts have popped out from nowhere. Take for example the recent Java Assignment 2. Blame me for working at pubs at night, always didn’t manage to wake up for java classes in the morning. As a result, I missed out 2 consecutive lessons of Java. Poor Jeffrey had to do it himself.. so sorry Jeff… =( In the end when we borrowed the java source code from Siew Chong for reference. Siew Chong stayed till about 9pm on Thurs to help us with the coding. Thanks Siew Chong!!

Sadly, the next monday (Java Due date), Jeff havent finished the package part and I couldn’t get him. Needed help urgently and kind Siew Chong offered his help! =) But, once I opened the source code emailed by Jeff, Siew Chong looked shocked and MAD! He was like, " It’s reali inappropriate of u guyz to copy from it!" At that point of time, I was reali reali hurt.. sighz.. I didn’t know what was going on and certainly have no idea whether it is the same codes or not.. Curse myself for being an IT JAVA IDIOT! Stupid me… I called Jeff immediately and called him down… he came and everything was solved.. It turned out to be that the codes format looked alike BUT the codes were different. So I guess it was a misunderstanding after all.. reali glad that at least the friendship was not jeopardized.. I hope..

Okie, come let’s have a look at the list of projects:

1. Business Communication PacRim Letter
2. Business Communication Presentation Outline
3. ERP Project
4. Business Communication Presentation
5. Java Test
6. CS GA3
7. Interactive Marketing (Individual Assignment)
8. Interactive Marketing (E-Marketing Plan)
9. Java Assignment 3

Like duh, so many!! By next week okie!! SOMEONE HELP ME!! AH!! Anyway, I believe I’m not the only one stress up… Dear Dear has been rather stressed up recently… he is entering SP soon… nxt month and he is reali worried.. sighz.. dun worry dear, u will make it… ! Jia YOu! So anyway, souls out there if you are reali pissed about the pressure mounting around you, it helps to just sit back, indulge in your favourite ice-cream, watch TV and ta dah, relax! =)

Next on line, I AM REALI REALI PISSED OFF WITH RUAN! I’m QUITTING THAT BLOODY ENSEMBLE! TO HELL WITH IT! That woman, not only is she appreciative about what we did for her. After so much so much, she turned to back stab you. Said, "I didn’t force you to join the comm. And Reilan did a so much beta job than you." "Why didnt u do this properly?" "Why didnt u do that properly?" Like wat the f$^##*! Come on, Reilan didnt even hand over properly. She simply throw everything at me and expected me to be a genius???!! Like HALO???? Who the hell know how to book keep??? Im A STUDENT…. jus in case she doesnt noe what student means: A STUDENT IS SOMEONE WHO LEARNS THINGS! COME ON!!Wat the hell was she thinking??? ANd that MS DING??? PLs, I reali hate her so much… no longer my teacher..no longer… sighz… I had wanted to leave ruan and still maintain that harmony, but she has drove me to this corner which definitely has no u-turn.. dead end..

okie enough about ruan and school… jus to inform all, Chinablack is officially closing down this month end… should you want to recall those wonderful times spent at Chinablack, you may wanna do it soon.. hahaha..

in school on a SATURDAY morning.. Whatever for?? DREAMWEAVER!! Like wat?? U drag urself up in the morning after a long nite’s work, feeling so very shagged, put urself under the shower half hoping it will wake u up, half sleeping still, then eat breakfast while staring at the bloody clock and thinking to urself: "Hell, I’m late for 1 hour!". Yet at the same time decided that it’s a SATURDAY, for heaven’s sake! Slowly dress up and decided that a cab will do the trick… hopped into one, smiling smugly to myself,"I will still make it to school by 10:15 for the 9:30 lesson…"

when i finally reach class at 10:20 (after spending $18.50) they told me the BLOODY CLASS is delayed till the technicians come fix the problem!!!! IT IS NOW 11:25 and a gal jus stepped in… IM SUCH A STUPID FOOL!! whoever takes cab to school for a dreamweaver lesson man!! STUPID… anyway, what can I do? sighz… nvm, so ppl out there, dont ever ever take cabs to school unless necessary or u are this guy with some neverending flow of cash ya..

Ruan.. again.. sorry but jus gotta blog about this irritating hobby.. hobby = irritating.. such a controversy issue.. haha.. anyway, i guess by now, my friends have gotten to experience first hand, or second hand how this 10 years hobby of mine have eventually taken a different turn in my life… settled the accounts with Ms Ding on Friday.. even went down to her place and explained everything to her… and… and she ACTUALLY PUT THE BLAME ON ME!! SAYING THAT I JUS PASSED HER THE DOCUMENTS WITHOUT EXPLAINING TO HER! AND SAID THAT I WAS THE ONE WHO TYPED WRONGLY! OMG!! That was so infuriating! She’s the one with the bad memory, and she is blaming everyone for it.. she wants to be a saint and claim everyone else is a devil.. like duh?? sighz.. guess I will jus have to give in to her, i mean sighz, give and take lor.. no choice.. haha..

okie okie, i noe i noe, today’s entry is like so damn long… i jus have this long day in school infront of a com, listening to this speaker speak on dreamweaver.. and my mind drifting away from time to time…. okie okie, i’ll stop complaining… haha.. well, enjoy ur weekends ppl… =) Cheers!

a little busy these few days.. so many things to catch up… so little time to complete.. wat if one has > 24 hours per day? Would that be great? or would that be a diaster? Hmm.. i guess it reali varies for individuals.. my take? it wouldn’t be that great… if I have >24 hours, my life will not be as hectic as it is now.. i will not be able to push myself to the limits and try to achieve beyond my normal capabilities.. but yet at times, I do yearn very much for more time… sighz.. such contradictions…

ended my employment with ******* last friday.. didnt reali tell them that I was quitting.. didnt noe how to send that message across.. Sue gave me that job back, after I quitted last June… colleagues there are still as fun… crowd may be diminishing BUT most importantly I am still having alot of fun there.. Chris, and some other ex-staffs came back.. so happy to be able to see them before I leave.. =) Chris still that sweet talker.. haha.. everyone seems to be leading a happy life and I am reali pleased and glad for them.. Cheers ppl! Sadly, last Friday didnt get a chance to reali bid them a proper goodbye… Some issues came up.. went there, supposed to be my work day but apparently they were over staff.. so I went home.. hmm, not exactly home.. went to meet up with Wenxing and Dear… Chatted and went over for sleepover at Dear’s place.. Dun reali noe whether Friday’s hooha was related to Wednesday’s issue.. but who cares? I’m leaving that place.. haha.. Feeling kinda mixed feelings… sad, happy, confuse? Not sure.. Starting work at **ly*m***,very posh.. all the ang mohs… sighz.. I may not be up to the job.. sighz… I dun noe, it’s reali confusing… longer working hours.. yet higher pay and more things to learn.. and beta environment.. haha.. dun noe.. reali confused..

finally passed over ruan accounts to Mr Yang, our accountant.. those accounts have been a major distractor of my life! It was way too time and effort consuming! I HATE THEM! Anyway, Mr Yang was reali sweet and nice about it and I am EXTREMELY GRATEFUL to him! MUACKS! Hahaha… yup, so as of 15 April 06, I am officially free from all ruan duties.. sad? maybe in the past, but now at this juncture of my life, I noe that it is a chapter to close… this ruan episode has been running for way too long and it’s time to start penning down a new chapter of my life.. ruan will never leave my life, neither will music.. I will never give up ruan and will still continue playing it, at home though.. no more performances, no more exams… just simple music and me.. at 23, more things can be accomplished..

in school, so many things have been happening.. so much so that I havent got time and space to breath, HELP! I am so suffocated… with so many projects.. and assignments.. at this point, there is no one to turn to for help.. Nevertheless, I noe God will walk me through this difficult times despite all the sins which I have committed… it is Him, whom I noe will give me this strength and knowledge… hanging on…